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The semester is coming to an end.
“Are you happy?” one may ask, “not really” will be my reply.
Like what i’ve said earlier on, I’ve enjoyed this semester a lot. I’m not sure why, but i guess it’s the friends and classmates around me. I’ve learnt a lot from each of them, i want to live on like that. I’ve never regretted choosing poly neither do I regret that I’ve chosen this course. I do not regret meeting this bunch of people.
As holidays are drawing nearer to me, I started to look out for jobs, I want to sign up for japanese course again.
When I was studying at home today, xiaodi always never fail to crack his jokes, sending me nonsense emails that portrays the very innocent and cute side of him. His email content could just be “Hi X.W, I’m very happy!” HAHAHA, and he sent that to my dajie who created the account for him.
His new theory “monkey+dolphin=monphin” and he really drew something like a “monphin” out. I laughed hysterically at this brother of mine. He would always encouraged me neverthelessly for my testsss, driving testsss and the many other major event that i’m going through. He’ll always ask me to play with him board games, but i’ll always reject his offer and thinks that it’s so boring. But on the second thought, I turned back and said “I’ll play with you after my exams, i promise ok?”
I’ve been taking a stroll with mummy every night at the neighbourhood (when we don’t have exe class). hand in hand, and it feels so fuzzy wazzy. I would always update her about school and stuff, she’ll always listen. These days she was trying to get me more confident in my driving techniques, I always sigh and think that I’m a lousy driver, can’t even park properly! but she’s always encouraging and said it’s ok, my sis turned to me and said if it was her she would have her naggings already :p
father and mother has been trying to select some things for our new home, occasionally there’s some dispute. I know father has been trying to get us involved in the planning process, but I seems to have no idea of how to do it at all 
This is just a very random post but I think it’s sweet.
If only time could stand still, I would want it to stop at this time.
It’s amazing how two strangers who thought they hated each other for the first time they met, could be together as friends over two good semesters. Laughing and teasing each other. And ended off listing all the things that they’ll miss when they are no longer in the same class.
I’ll miss her, this cheerful and loud friend of mine when i’m in another class.
It’s amazing how well we could talk so much with “my role model” over dinner yesterday! It was a fantastic dinner!
i love how it all became a twist of events.
// I travelled all the way from town to school, and there was no seats for me in the end. I ended up going home! AHHHHHH!!!! should have just hack care about it and shop at town with sis..
I’ve passed my driving! like finally~It feels good, finally this is one obstacles that i’ve overcome.
What’s next? The overseas internship
I need to gather all my confidence, to fight for my rights and preserve on! I need to attend job interview confidently. I need to get my long-lost self esteem and confidence back! I need to and I have to! Because it’s too good an opportunity to be missed and I’d really want to go please call me!
“sincerity is very important. There’s a fine line between excuses and reasons” i seems like i’ve to learn the hard way.
Looking forward to tomorrow.
Got a “rejected”call despite them looking for one.
It’s so ironic. Joke of the day. can’t even bring myself to laugh.
Felt so lousy lousy lousy! My indecisiveness and lack-of-immediate actions has landed me in this situation.
I deserve it or what?
// My favourite teacher talked to me the other day.
“When your group is experiencing the peak/ the heart of an issue, do not fear and get worried as your group will focus on your anxiety instead of the problem. Withdraw yourself from the situation, and take a bird’s view. Crack a joke or something to calm them down and then you could carry on solving the problem. I could forsee that you could go far..”
This favourite teacher of mine, thinks that I could be somebody, someday. She really thinks that I can do it. She has more confidence in me than the amount of confidence that I think of myself. But the one question that kept ringing in my head was that “what was it that she sees in me?” I’m truly honoured. But it makes me think twice. What could I be in the future? Which aspect does she thinks that I could be?
However, I’m afriad I wouldn’t be able to ask her that. She’s leaving the school soon
At times I thought I’ve put in too much emotions into what I do, I’ve cared too much, i’ve treated every one too nicely that when its time to part, it becomes difficult and emotional. ironic. but i know this is me. I wander how am i going to change my jobs next time, I would be emotionally attached and dare not leave. But I guess this is life, i have to put myself in front of others.
I have to be tear-less, how can a 19 year old plus girl tear so easily right?
i’m okay, just some thoughts of the day.
and i’ve got to be stronger and calm, for next wednesday.
AJA AJA FIGHTING!
one project done! 3 more to go
she said my un-assureness makes me humble, gives me the drive and I’ll go far with that. But I’ll have to be sure of myself and have more confident in myself. not over confident, not complacent.
Thank you! I’m really touched by what you say, please don’t leave us, I’ll miss this motherly teacher.
I think i’ve gone mad, haha!
I threw my temper, not really my temper but I was stamping my feet and saying “you always don’t share with me!!!!” at my older sister. Come to think of it, i’m really childish! Oh man i was so vexed for a moment, was laying on the bed till I told myself that “hey! there’s so many things for you to do! why are you here laying on the bed on a saturday morning!”
I felt guilty 5 mins after I threw my temper like a kid. No wonder brothers and sisters were all laughing at me today. They must be thinking that this older sister is still a kid! silly silly silly me!
So quiet at home, not-participative at home. I didn’t swim with my nephew today, I didn’t join my sisters at parkway twice or thrice because of PROJECTS! I’m so going to catch up with them after my projects!!!
I keep on telling myself to presevere on! but whenever i see my siblings living such a carefree life at home and with my parents enjoying life at home now, i’ll thought why does it seems like i’m the only one who is busy? Argh!!!!!
At the end of the day, will my parents attend my prize giving ceromony? no right…? but i know the xiaowei i live in, will still presevere on no matter what! I don’t know why she’s so persistent??
i’ve got no idea too.
During the holidays, my family went for a “trip” around Singapore. I’ve finally found the beauty in Singapore. It has been years since my family and I have gone out together as a family. We have never travelled overseas as a whole family. But this day, I felt like I was a tourist travelling with my family in Singapore. 
This scene reminds me of japan, haha! the leaves, the bridge, the settings and all really seems like we were abroad. Thanks to mum for suggesting this outing! I’ve enjoyed myself very much
Have I told you that I enjoyed going to school?
I had once gone through the typical confusion about which route to take after O’s, i was quite certain that I wanted business under the influence of my sisters. When I’d first stepped into TP, i envied those students who were introducing their course to freshies like me. Today, i’ve volunteered to be one of the student to be in the chat room to clear all the doubts that the O’s students in the TP open house tomorrow, promoting my course etc. I felt a sense of satisfaction.
I have no regrets in coming to poly. Although i’m not those high-high type of people, I am not outspoken, I am not confident, but i’d just felt that I had really enjoy my life as a student here. I used to be worried and tear over a classmate of mine in my project group, but the both of us turn out to be friends who are able to talk comfortably to each other about work, friends and our families. What a twist of perception, I’m just very thankful of all these little things I face in school.
I’d used to complain a lot about projects, stressed over projects and all, but i’m not now (at least i’ve learnt to live happily with it). But on a side note, I know my eyes will suffer sooner or later because of all the late nights spent doing projects while all my siblings were having sweet dreams in their sleep. Things has changed, at least for me. environment, house, sleeping habits etc etc.
In this new year, I want to continue learning jap, go Shanghai for overseas attachment, healthier food, friends, more time for family, more time with friends, exposure.
Dear all, thank you for reading
